I think I'm kidding myself.
I'm back to feeling like myself.
I get emotional pretty easy now, I suppose that's why I haven't been writing. It's hard to admit a lot of things to myself and at times I feel weak and stupid. But I'm out of the whole surrounding myself with people thing. It's almost harder, and all I do is ignore what's important to me.
I guess to sum up all the time I didn't update, uhm: Alex moved to New Mexico, I'm keeping myself busy with school, night school, and starting the whole applying to college thing. The work, time, and effort doesn't bother me because I have nothing else to do. Why not feel accomplished. I see graduating early as a completely positive thing and I can't wait.
I've spent atleast six dollars at Starbucks for the past eleven days. My car is on empty and I'm out of facewash. But who cares if I have to walk and my face breaks out if I'm warm and awake right.
I love the people I've gotten to know so far this year. They make a lot of my classes bearable and can hold a conversation. It's amazing.
I've seperated myself from a lot of things lately. Sometimes I know or atleast feel like it'd be easier to just go back to that, and to not caring or acting like I don't about other people's feelings and how what I do effects them. But I always know I'm kidding myself, and so far it's only come back to bite me in the ass with the same thing happening to me.
So since I've started to suck so bad at updating I have: gotten my nose pierced, partied over Spring Break, gone to a Gwen Stefani concert, become a junior in HS, gone to my dad's wedding, gone to Florida, gotten a pomeranian, and gone to my stepbrother's wedding.
I'll post pictures of all of it.
Other than that I'm trying to enjoy summer. It's not working out so great, but whatever.
Sometimes I'm so stubborn I can't let myself get out of a bad mood, even when there's no reason to still be in it.
Or do I really have a right to be annoyed?
Maybe it's not just little, random stuff.